Saint Sophrony the Athonite. |
Since my young days I have watched in sad bewilderment the scene unfolding before my eyes. But there have been hours of strange triumph when the extreme folly of it all assured me of the inevitable presence of another 'pole' in the existence of the world - Wisdom. I did not attain to this Wisdom but it would flood my soul with hope of transfiguration for all creatures, and prayer for the whole world would revive in my heart, and undying Light heal my soul.
In praying for people one's heart often senses their spiritual or
emotional state. Because of this the spiritual father can experience their psychological
state - contentment and happiness in love, exhaustion from over-work, fear of
approaching hardship, the terror of despair, and so on. Remembering the sick
before the Lord, in spirit he bends over the beds of millions of people at any
moment looking into the face of death, and suffering agonies. Turning his
attention to the dying, the priest naturally enters mentally into the other
world, and participates either in the soul's tranquil going to God or her
apprehension of the unknown which shocks the imagination prior to the actual
moment of departure from this world. And if standing at the bedside of only one
person dying in agony affords us a vision shattering in its contrast to our
conception of the first-created man, the thought of all the suffering on earth
is more than our psyche, even our body, can endure. For the priest-confessor
this is a crucial threshold - what must he do? Shut his eyes on it all,
obedient to the instinct for self-preservation natural to all of us? Or
continue further? Without the preliminary ascetic effort of profound repentance,
the gift from on High, this “continuing” is beyond man. In actual fact it is
already a question of following Christ to the Garden of Gethsemane and on to
Golgotha, in order to live with Him, by His strength, the tragedy of the world
as one's own personal tragedy; of, outside time and beyond space, embracing in
spirit, with compassionate love, our whole human race bogged down in insoluble
conflicts. The fact that we have forgotten, even rejected, our primordial
calling lies at the heart of the universal tragedy. The all-destroying passion
of pride can only be overcome by total repentance, through which the blessing
of Christ-like humility descends on man, making us children of the Heavenly
Father.
This amazing itinerary is unknown to all except the Christian. At
first departure from the narrow prison of the individual can seem paradoxical:
we ourselves feel crushed by our own sufferings - where shall we find the
strength of spirit to embrace in compassion all the millions of people who at
any given moment are suffering like us, and surely even more than we are? If we
feel joyful, we can manage it better somehow but when we cannot cope with our
own pain, sympathy for the multitudes only increases our already unbearable
torment. Nevertheless, try this, and you will see how with the profound weeping
of prayer for all suffering humanity energy will appear, of another order, not
of this world. This new form of compassion, coming down from on High, differs
from the first impulse shut tight inside oneself, in that now, instead of
destroying, it quickens us. The horizons of our own individual life are
immeasurably widened, and many passages in the Gospels and Epistles we can interpret
as applicable to our own case - even what we might remark ourselves. For
instance, “Now no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous, but
grievous: nevertheless afterward it yieldeth the peaceable fruit of
righteousness.?" Or, “... Looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of
our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising
the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God .. ” By
opening ourselves to greater suffering in spirit, we surmount our individual
ordeal. Especially will it be like this at the end: death overcomes death, and
the power of Resurrection prevails.
It is vital that we should all pray long and hard; that through
years and years of fervent prayer - prayer of contrition, particularly - our
fallen nature may be so transformed that it can assimilate the Unoriginate
Truth made manifest to us. And-this, before we depart from this world. Christ -
Who showed this Truth to us in our flesh - draws us to Himself and calls us to
follow after Him. Our eternal abiding with Him in the unshakeable Kingdom
depends on our response to His summons. The measureless grandeur of the task
set before us inspires heart and mind with fear - the fear of love, since we
may prove utterly unworthy of God. Fear because we are confronted with painful
ascetic effort - the kingdom of heaven suffereth violence. The battle is
indescribable. “Outer darkness” threatens those who are mastered by pride or
base passions. On the other hand, “To him that overcometh will I grant to sit
with me in my throne, even as I also overcame, and am set down with my Father
in his throne. He that hath an ear, let him hear what the Spirit saith”(Rev3:
21-22).
Reference:
“On Prayer”. Archimandrite Sophrony(Sakharov). 1996.