Saturday, September 29, 2018

Spiritual weapons..
Saint Nil Sorsky.



Saint Nil Sorsky.
For those who sincerely seek to repent, and who seek God in love and fear, and have Him alone before their eyes and walk according to His commandments, God will accept all of them, granting his mercy and giving them His grace and glorifying them. Thus all of Holy Scripture assures us of this.
In ancient times many Fathers themselves walked in this exem­plary way of life and, directed others accordingly. But now it is not the same, due to a great lack of such spiritual directors. But whoever dedicates himself completely to the work of God, God's very own grace will wisely guide him, being his strength now and for all ages, in the life to come.
But to those who do not desire to undertake the ascetical life and are full of vanity, even in our present time God does not give His gift as He did to the saints of old. Such persons, the Apostle Paul calls the seduced ones who lead others astray. Persons such as these do not wish to listen to the fact that God's grace is always in this moment available. Gregory of Sinai calls them the utmost blinded, nonfeeling, unwise persons, lacking in faith. We, discerning from the holy Writings, if we wish diligently to be occu­pied with the divine world, should distance ourselves as far as pos­sible from the vanities of this world. Let us be engaged in uprooting the passions, keeping our heart from any evil thoughts and fulfilling in general all God's commandments.
In general in this matter of guarding the thoughts, St. Hesy­chius of Jerusalem offers us four ways:
1.     To guard the thoughts at their first manifestation, that is to say, to follow or observe them and resist them at the very beginning;
2.    To hold the heart silent at its deepest center where it is free from all phantasms;
3.     To call upon the Lord Jesus Christ for help;
4.    To have before you the remem­brance of your own death.
 All these ways close the doors to evil thoughts. And each of these methods, whichever one you may choose, this is called "nepsis", or sober vigilance of our mind, in a word, known simply as "mental activity." Paying attention to all of these ways, each of us should undertake the battle according to what is the best way for himself.
 By what means we may gain strength to resist the attacks of evil thoughts.?.
One way to strengthen oneself in the inner battle and the struggle against temptations, described in all the Writings, consists in this, that when we will be attacked by evil thoughts, we will not be disheartened, nor become depressed, nor give up nor discon­tinue the longer course itself on the road of the ascetical life. When we are bitterly assailed by sordid temptations, the cunningness of the devil instills in us the false feeling of shame so that we will be hindered from turning our eyes to God in heartfelt repentance and petitioning for strength to turn against such thoughts. But let us conquer these thoughts by constant repentance and unceasing prayer, and not surrender our arms to our enemies, that is, let us not turn back, even though each day we receive from them a thou­sand wounds. Let us firmly determine never to give up this life giving activity, even until the moment of our death. For along with such temptations, we receive also a secret visitation of God's mercy.
But when we are deemed worthy of the presence of God's gift of grace, we should not become careless, that is, we should not give in to complacency nor become puffed up. Rather, we should turn humbly to God and give thanks to Him and remember our sins, which we have committed by His permission. Recall how, we have fallen so low then and how animal-like was our unthinking mind. Let us meditate on the depraved condition of our nature. Ponder upon the impure thoughts and disgusting fruits which gripped our souls when they were frozen without the warmth of God's grace. Let us imagine that time of torturous and disordered movement which overtook us, not so very long ago when we lay in such blindness. Let us recall how quickly and suddenly we bowed down before our passions as we took delight in them only to heap more burdens upon ourselves in the darkened state of our mind. And let us remember all of this as we weep and reproach ourselves.
"Apart from me you can do nothing"
John 15:5.
Consider this, that God's divine providence brings all this upon us in order that we may be humbled. See what blessed "Gregory of Sinai" teaches about this purpose: "Until a person will have experienced having been utterly defeated and conquered, until he has been deeply wounded by every kind of passion and temptation, even if he does not receive evil wounds inflicted upon his soul as he does not find any help in the actions he performs nor any help from God or from any other creature, so that he is driven to the condi­tion of despair, only then can he have true repentance and be hum­bled to consider himself lower than all others, since he regards himself as the least slave before all others and the worst of even the devils themselves. Only then can he realize that he was beset and conquered by them."
And so divine providence arranges this, for the purpose of instructing a person in humility. After such an experience, there always fellows a second and greater gift from God. God elevates the indi­vidual by giving to the humbled person the divine power to act and accomplish in him all things, even to perform miracles as he realizes he is God's instrument.
Pay attention to this with fear. If you are not humble in your wisdom, grace will leave you and you naturally will be defeated by your being tempted by ordinary daily temptations. For you are unable to stand steadfast in virtue by your own power. This is the work of grace which upholds you as a mother carries her child in her arms. God's grace protects you from all adversity. We must pay great attention to this, so that we will not be guilty but will actually be strengthened by the occasion of evil thoughts. Otherwise, this happens in such circumstances when we journey on the divine path, and we do not progress rightly, not sincerely and not steadily. Thus, whoever wishes to strive for perfection in God's love, who truly seeks to be saved and strives to do God's work, such a person should live in his cell (inner being) with great zeal and attention and, as much as his strength allows, let him live the ascetical life in all details in accord with the holy Writings, fulfilling all with piety in humility and always with zeal, without any laziness and weakening.
When you pray against the evil thoughts, and they still only assail you all the more and increase in number and you cannot keep your mind in your heart, then pray an oral prayer without ceasing, with strength and patience. If you find yourself becoming a bit slothful and fatigued, then call on God for help and force yourself to continue praying as best you can, never giving up on praying. Then all such thoughts will depart from you, as they are driven out by God’s help. When you calm the mind from such phantasms, then enter into your heart and pray the prayer of the heart or the mind. For ever though there are many good works, their value is only a partial good. The prayer of the heart is the source of all good and is likened to gardens that are refreshed by water, so does this prayer of the heart refresh the soul, as "Gregory of Sinai" teaches.


Reference:
Nil Sorsky. The Complete writings. Paulist press.(2003)